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Not having money
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Money is the thing that gets me down
Time and again it makes me frown
Because much as I like to be
Happy and wild and free
It really isn’t all that funny
When you don’t have any money

Cat bills, vets bills, all the food
Wow this doesn’t get me in the mood
For play, for joy, for laughing and smiling
More like ‘perhaps it’s time for slimming’

How can I save more
Have some leftover
It’s not easy to see
What can go… errr

Not the food, the vets bills or school fees
Perhaps the trinkets, the bracelets and fripperies?
Of which there aren’t really many
But something must give
Cos it simply ain’t funny
Not having money

Information


There’s so much information out there
It hangs in the air
And I wonder if that’s part of
Seeing that some people really don’t care

So much about others
They’re able to pass by the homeless man on the street
The tired, anxious mother 
Struggling, dog tired but still on her feet

It’s kind of overwhelms, consumes
Fills up even the biggest room
Voices, opinions, everything certain
So by the time you pull the curtain

To go to sleep, your own voice can be drowned out
Because everything else was just so loud
It feels like an addiction, a strange time truth be told
And I wonder whether back in times of old

Life was simpler, no social media
And wonder “do we need you?”
On our phones, macs, iPads,
On our TVs, though our earbuds

It all feels so constant
A need for distraction?
To stop us from taking
More useful action?

Because whilst it strikes me the information is everywhere
Sometimes it feels a little like many don’t care
I ponder as I drift into slumber
“What is this spell we are all under?”

It’s sort of overwhelming
It’s a strange feeling
This constant noise
Above all else, I lose poise

And feel I grow smaller, 
Quieter somehow
Unable to express my points of view
Do you notice this too?

Almost a battle, a constant din
Do you see? 
Does it ‘do your head in’
Do you feel this, or is it just me?

I feel a need to return
To a time gone before
When, like in homeopathic philosophy 
‘Less is more’

And I’ve stepped away from much of it
Because overwhelming was my word
For how it felt, and instead I might knit
Or crochet a shawl for when it is cold

So much fear



There’s so much fear 
On both sides of the fence
It seems fun perhaps to scare
Everyone senseless
No matter what voice you are following
Which truth you are seeing

There’s so much fear out there
Whether it comes from the BBC
With distorted, manipulated ‘truths’
Bear with me

For a moment as I explain
This isn’t nonsense pulled from my brain
But a direct experience my daughter had
With a show and reporters that she met

Where they asked her what her opinion was 
And she told them, bless her socks
But it wasn’t what they wanted to hear
So they asked her again, to be clear

And she repeated her own opinion
Because that’s what they told her they wanted
But Her thoughts didn’t fit their narrative
So they told her what to say
And that’s what she was heard saying on TV that day

In schools around the country
(It wasn’t a small show)
But no one watching would know
That she doesn’t live her life feeling worried
Of climate change and increased flooding
Like they told her to say
No, what she actually said that day

When they asked how she felt 
because friends couldn’t make it in
Due to flooding that meant
Roads were blocked in

Was ‘It’s nice, school is quieter today’
But which version aired?
It’s not rocket science 
An unease alliance
Between the news
And the world views 
Someone wants us to have

Now I’m not denying any issue
But I am conscious of the possible manipulation
From every station
Having felt it so close to home

But also, my friends
This doesn’t end
Because the alternative news
Can also hold strong views

And whether right or wrong
You can get swept along 
And stuck again in that place of fear
It takes a lot to bow out
And realise

There’s so much fear out there
On both sides of the fence

I’ve been chatting a lot
About ‘justified anxiety’ 
And some part of me
Feels that it’s like being in the sea

I feel the terror
The fear of unknown
Maybe it feels safer
Staying at home

But this threat
It’s bigger yet
You’re not safe
Anywhere 

Not just a virus
Way beyond that
But then I sit
And I say

There’s so much fear out there
On both sides of the fence
I need to be fully present, fully here
And whether it’s truly common sense

To be scared of what’s actually going on
I’m not sure that’s the answer
For right now, right here
This is what is, the rest may not happen
And whilst I do want some preparation
I also don’t want to live paralysed by fear 
Whichever side of the fence that I’m on

So I guess for me getting though this mess
There’s a beautiful lesson
Of surrender to the unknown
Of not always needing to know

I feel a little like I’ve reached the other side
So many videos, so many things to decide
To try to uncover, understand
But what I do see is

There’s so much fear
On both sides of the fence
And that leads me to see 
I need strategies 

To gracefully pick my way through 
Crochet is one, 
And sitting in the sun
When it shines
In our northern climes 

Stepping away from the ‘news’
With someone else’s’ views
Saying what they were told to say
Like my daughter that day

Be the change


Poo, doggie do
Seems to me it’s a contentious topic
And I thought I’d shine a light on it
Tell a story
Not for glory

But just because it exists
Some would like it not to do
But it’s a fact of life
You put food in
And poo comes out

Strikes me us Brits are all quite shy
Around the topic in general
But when it comes to dogs there’s a cry, 
A huge almighty din
‘Why can’t you put it in the bin?’

Our tale goes back many years ago
When on our village Facebook site I would go
And there were so many complaints
From various ladies and gents

About the mess. Everywhere.
‘It’s everywhere’ they’d cry
And you’d feel the collective sigh
‘Not good enough
If you have a thing that goes woof
You’ve just got to bend down and pick it up’

Well back then, 
We were in between pooches
But a little one who thought
‘Mama I’d love to get a dog’

“No, not yet, no big furry pets for us
Just a lizard for now”
We’d chuckle at how
He walked like a dinosaur
All over the floor

But the point of my tale comes
When on my friends foot my eye happened to fall
How she got a tattoo there at all
Is probably another story

I’d nearly fainted when I had mine done
But this is a tangent, back to the fun
To the topic in hand
So one day she did stand 
And I saw it. It made me think

The quote, it was Gandhi
“Be the change
You wish to see in the world”
It was all there, so my plan unfurled

Like the roll of nappy sacks I always had with me
I think you can probably see
Where this is going
Or should I be slowing
Down for you to catch up?

So that day I decided that
I had to fling my hat
In the ring
Start to sing
The song that was true to me

So instead of complaining
Cos that didn’t seem to change things
When poo I would see
I’d get on one knee

Hmm, it’s fair to say that’s a slight exaggeration
Put in for the rhyme
Not the true situation
But pick up I would 

Every time that poo I did see
Not on one knee
But plopped in a bag 
Then off in the bin

It happened as these things do
(Though not always when you’re dealing with poo)
That a friend used to walk with me
Up to the school 
And she though the idea was cool

Don’t get me wrong, not that we loved it
But once you’ve tried and tried
To have scrubbed it
Off school shoes
Well, then you’ve nothing to lose

Prevented us from having to have the stench in the sink
And that made us think
‘The idea is working’ we happily said
‘Lots less poo on our path to tread’

And fast forward to today, dogs we have two
I still do it now
Because you never know when one you might miss
So to save forgetting and feeling bad
Paying it forward is an idea I had

Whilst I do try to collect every one
The law of sod says I can’t be perfect
So instead picking up the occasional one
That might not belong to me
Or if it’s blocking the path
It feels the right thing to do

And just in case 
One time I should happen to face
The wrong way 
I pick others up. 
It’s not for everyone but…

I may have already said it
I love to be in poo credit

Ways to start the day

An orgasm to start the day
Can help a girl laugh and play
Not saying that it’s the only way
But it’ll do for me today

Of course there are plenty of 
Other great ways you can start the day too
The lovely Dr Chatterjee 
Suggests sitting in the sun 
With a hot cup of tea

Dance in the kitchen
Have some fun
Bake cakes, sing songs
Laugh and laugh
Or wash and splash
Enjoying a bath

I do think it’s important we remember 
How our brains are wired sometimes
I’ll give you a clue...
It’s not for happy times
It’s to keep us safe
Perhaps from the tigers, the wolves and the sharks
But now they’re not around
Anxiety is still plenty to be found

It’s hard wired you see
Or that’s my understanding
So we need to be kind, seek compassion
And be gentle on ourselves in times of stress

The chances are our brains can point out that which is bad
Sense all, all the danger to be had 
Around us, but what about fun
Not so much evolutionary purpose there to be done 
Doesn’t keep us safe
When we were all sheltering 
Back in the cave

So in this world without tigers and wolves and sharks
(Don’t get me wrong, they are about
But not on the doorstep
And I think we can forget)
There’s plenty of ways we can still be scared
Mortgage payments, overdrafts, bank loans 
All can give us things to moan
About and panic and worry
But really, what is the hurry?

I’m not suggesting irresponsible behaviour
Just that we’re hard wired to stress
And perhaps we can do something about this mess
Perhaps something we can change you see
Easier than if our tiger was waiting up a tree

So yes we have stress, we can be in a mess
But I think we can also choose
To see some light, 
On those dark nights

Starting to train our brain
We wouldn’t expect a marathon to run
With no training at all to be done
I feel our brain is just the same

We let it lie dormant then think it’s not working
It’s working of course, just needs some more learning
A training program of sorts
Similar but different than doing outdoor sports

There’s options out there, you can take your pick
And see which one helps you to tick
A gratitude journal, write your own headlines
To start the day
You choose what to say

Another mention of the good doctor
Feel Better in 5* is one book he offers
I think it’s fab
Lots of simple ideas to be had

So I won’t go on and on here
My cold shower time is drawing near
That’s another good idea
Another way
To start your day

Have a great one, you deserve it :)

*Feel Better in 5 is a book I recommend to lots of clients. It's great for helping to turn things around when you feel yourself starting to dip or are in a bit of a rut.

Doing what I can


It’s easy to feel disempowered
In the world today
Sometimes hard to find the right thing to say
Or think or do

I’ve felt it plenty and recognise the feeling
It’s good to note when it starts appearing
And one way I manage it now 
Is to take a look around and see how

I perhaps can make things a little bit better
Plant a plant, grow a flower, write a letter
Doesn’t have to be huge
And sadly we can’t fix all that we hear of
Daily on the news

Which I think is one of my problems
With the ‘news’, that we need to recover from
Our brains are not prepared
We’re not all that ready
To hear from every corner of the globe
Anyone else feel a bit heady?

Or dizzy, or panicked, or really not coping?
So many problems, but I’ve one solution
Switch off the TV. 
Silence Spotify
Don’t listen to the radio
It’ll be OK, you’ll not die

And whilst we’re here, leave the newspapers
It’s mostly made up to sell all the papers
Sensationalised, good news ignored 
So best if we leave that in the stores

Sit a while and just be
In a garden, a park or by the sea
And allow your mind to wander
I think with this you’ll find
You feel stronger

And see whether you want, you need to go back
To knowing everything, personally I think it’s a trap
We can’t know it all, fix it all, save everyone
So we shrink, feel terrible and stop having fun 

Because we feel guilty, how can I do but they can’t
I hear so many people chant
And it’s not about being cold hearted you see
But I think it’s about doing what I can, being me 
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It’s easy to believe
​

It’s easy to believe
When you don’t think they set out to deceive
Sadly so much money changing hands
It’s sometimes hard to see where truth lands

If you put the word ‘Big’ in front of anywhere
Big food, Big Agriculture, Big dairy, 
It’s pretty much fair to say
They’ll tell you what to believe today

Sugar is great, cigarettes will help calm you
Don’t be silly, no, none of it will harm you
Big Pharma, just as honest as the rest
And whilst you’re here, why not invest?

This past year you could make millions
And there’s a whole host more billionaires
So whilst I’m not wanting to split hairs
But what vested interest could they have?

Possibly. Anyone?
This isn’t just a bit of fun
But words from olden times ring in my ears:
‘It’s easier to fool people
Than to convince them they have been fooled’

Thanks to Mark Twain - and though it may sound awful
Also the brilliant Mr George Orwell
For he warned us of this fate
And others who have said we’re making a mistake

Of massive proportions
For how simple can it be, 
give up our freedoms
Nothing left for me
And you.

And now, after all that, 
Where was the 'flu?
Ah no, now you’re protected
Can live forever and forever 
And even be resurrected

Stay home stay safe,
Remember hands, face, space
So whilst we busily go against nature
Rally at a virus we all found out later
Was made in a lab

But before they admitted that,
what fun to be had
Mocking anyone who said so

So what to believe?
Who to trust?
What to read?

It’s gotten quite tricky
Altogether sticky
Knowing which song
To sing along

So listen in and listen good
I shall say this only once
When there’s a chap with his finger in every piece
Of the pie, wouldn’t you question
Or hesitate
And ponder, is this all a mistake?

The fact that the fact checkers are paid
By the same one invested in what they should say
That’s not impartial
But only one example
Of this fishy smelling place

It’s easy to believe
That they don’t set out to deceive
But it’s fair to say I ponder
At night I lie awake and wonder

Perhaps ‘they’ know it all
And we’re just too small
To blow it all right open
So I sit and I hope

That they’ll do it all for us
Expose themselves as the house of cards 
Collapses upon us
And we shall crawl out
And then. shout

Shall we start all over again?


Simplify


A simpler life
Maybe less strife?
I wake and I wonder
Which thing to do next
To read or to write
Or to take to the desk

To do a course - but if so which one?
So many choices, I never feel done
I like having choices
Indeed no voices
Telling me what to do next 
But to decide
For myself

The choice follows through
When there’s shopping to do
Which tin of baked beans
The choice is endless it seems

And whilst it doesn’t matter, this choice that we’re making
Inside it is shaking
Our decision muscle
So when we need hustle
It is harder to do

Keep it simple so many say
Know what you’ll wear today
Have less stuff to dust
Minimalism is in
Less stuff to have to 
Put in the bin

And I wonder, if less is more
As many say
From Hahnemann* on

*Others attribute the quote
To Robert Browning 
From a poem
However as all good homeopaths know
Hahnemann was already in the know
And using nano medicine in his took kit
Way before anyone else had dreamed it

This could be the way to go
To achieve more flow
Try it and see,
I’m playing with the idea 
To see if it brings
More peace around here

Hahnemann first published his essay on the homeopathic approach in 1796, using minimal amounts of highly diluted medicines to effect healing. Browning’s poem, published in 1855 uses the line less is more - and how amazing, without internet… same ideas in different places. I think that happens when there’s a deep truth there.
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